Last week was on of those weeks where I must’ve stopped and asked GOD 100 times, “WHY?”
I mean, I know what time I have to be to work, but for some reason I was DISGUSTED each morning that my alarm clock went off at 4am.
I know that I take public transportation to work, but I didn’t want ANYBODY sitting next to me just because….I didn’t feel like talking.
I know that part of the audition process when it comes to acting is that you will NEVER get every part; But GOD KNOWS I was PISSED last week when my agent called&said, “I’m sorry…we didn’t get this one, BUT the director said YOU came VERY close.”
I wanted to say, “Man, SHUT UP! I don’t wanna hear that!” “WHO CARES??? I came close!”
YEP!….THAT was me up until YESTERDAY, allowing myself to forget that we can become so distracted by our own plans, we totally miss out or FORGET about the plan that GOD has for us.
After a long conversation with my dear friend Larry Flick, I went home&FOCUSED on the past week and totally FORGOT that in the midst of ALL my “why me?” b.s. this is also what happened:
*I met a female officer (a COMPLETE stranger) in NYC who said to me…”I RECOGNIZE who you are!” “I NEVER forget a face!” “And it’s on my spirit to tell you that GOD HAS NEVER FAILED ME.” And then she gave me a hug. YES. A BLACK. FEMALE. COP. In NEW YORK CITY.
*I went to the premier of the film “FRUITVALE STATION” at MOMA in NYC. Then the after party at the STANDARD HOTEL only to ride up to the party in an elevator with Debra Lee, (THE CEO of BET) and Oscar winner CUBA GOODING Jr. How many times is THAT gonna happen?
*I was FUSSING at a bus driver for making us switch buses and essentially making me late to something…But do you know that 3 SECONDS after we drove past a point in the road a car FELL from the overpass ABOVE. I heard the crash. Turned around, saw the FLIPPED OVER (there was NO WAY the people in the car survived THAT) Then started CRYING. I know…GOD spared me&my husband’s life.
* 2 younger folks that I’ve been praying for, mentoring, and sending daily inspirations to came to me THIS WEEK and said, “HB! GOD IS GOOD!” 1 of them got THE JOB they wanted and the other is being admitted into the GRADUATE PROGRAM at their college…without finances being an issue! AMEN!
*And it just so happens TODAY, As I was preparing to make a toast….LOOK at what ANOTHER young person that I’m mentoring shared with me (that was given to him.) Mind you, He has NO IDEA what my past week was like. So ENJOY! Especially, if you’re having one of those “WHY ME?” weeks.
A CONVERSATION with GOD
Me: God, can I ask You a question?
Me: You promise you won’t get mad?
GOD: I promise
Me: Why did You let so much stuff happen to me today?
GOD: What do u mean?
Me: Well, I woke up late
Me: My car took forever to start
Me: At lunch they made my sandwich wrong & I had to wait
Me: On the way home, my phone went DEAD, just as I picked up a call
GOD: All right
Me: And on top of it all off, when I got home ~I just want to soak my feet in my new foot massager & relax. BUT it wouldn’t work!!! Nothing went right today! Why did You do that?
GOD: Let me see, the death angel was at your bed this morning & I had to send one of My Angels to battle him for your life. I let you sleep through that
Me: (humbled) Oh
GOD: I didn’t let your car start because there was a drunk driver on your route that would have hit you if you were on the road.
GOD: The first person who made your sandwich today was sick & I didn’t want you to catch what they have, I knew you couldn’t afford to miss work.
Me: (embarrassed) Okay
GOD: Your phone went dead because the person that was calling was going to give false witness about what you said on that call, I didn’t even let you talk to them so you would be covered.
Me: (softly) I see God
GOD: Oh and that foot massager, it had a shortage that was going to throw out all of the power in your house tonight. I didn’t think you wanted to be in the dark.
Me: I’m Sorry God
GOD: Don’t be sorry, just learn to Trust Me…. in All things , the Good & the bad.
Me: I will trust You.
GOD: And don’t doubt that My plan for your day is Always Better than your plan.
Me: I won’t God. And let me just tell you God, Thank You for Everything today.
GOD: You’re welcome child. It was just another day being your God and I Love looking after My Children.